You've been talking in your sleep

Why is it that I sacrifice myself for the acceptance of others when the one I most need acceptance from IS me? I am baffled by this often...too often in fact!  It's funny that when searching for someone to say "well done" or "nice  job" or "impressive" I forget to look to the person who should appreciate me most...me, again. When seeking love, pats on the back, forgiveness, compliments, praise...who knows best what to say? Me. So why is it so hard to say it to myself? Funny how after years and years of "looking for myself", I can't seem to look at myself in the mirror anymore without judgement, criticism, & even shame sometimes for not believing in myself and my own abilities as a person.  I let people steal the best of me and replace it with a person I don't like being around. I have to learn to appreciate me, regardless of what I receive from anyone else. I have a lot to offer and a lot to say. I just need to start speaking the language to me!

Time is on Our Side

Time is on Our Side! What a load of crap! 


I feel like time slips away from me so fast that I hardly recognize where it all goes ... even in a single day! 


From the minute I crawl out of my bed in the morning until I bury my head in the pillow at night (or usually the wee hours of the morning) my day seems to have been in light speed with me stuck in an alternate state of time going "now hold on a second"!


For crying out loud ... there are only 159 shopping days until Christmas! For those of you who calculated...I didn't count Thanksgiving because most stores are closed then. 

My point is that it seems like I just popped the top on my sparkling cider bottle to the tune of Auld Lang Syne yesterday. 

So what have I done in 200+ days since then? Well if I calculate the 50+ hours a week that I work + the 6 to 8 hours a day that I sleep + the 2.5 hours a day I probably spend preparing something to eat and then eating it + the 30 minutes a day X 5 days a week that I drive to and from work + the 6 hours a month I spend grocery shopping + the 4 hours a month at Walmart or some other discount store for toiletries + the 45 minutes a day that it takes me to get ready for work .... 


I'm seeing it doesn't leave much time for my favorite 3 "F's" Family, Friends and FUN!  


So what to do?  


The craziness is that I spend so much of my time and energy on "work" that I damn sure better enjoy it...so from today on that is exactly what I'm going to do!  


I take back my "FUN" side and I make my job fun!  Because trust me when I say that I've stepped into the night of the living dead many times at work lately and it is difficult not to get stuck in the quicksand and smother right along with everyone else...but I know there is goodness in everyone and I will be determined to find and highlight it so that I will have grand days, every day!


A toast...to Time! May you always stop when there is laughter to share, praise in the air, gladness in the heart and when a party is about to start!  Freeze the moments and graft them into the memory to always be shared again!


Cheers!

Just an FYI from your friendly Drive Thru Order taker at your Favorite Fast Food Restaurant!

Okay...Drive thru workers unite!

It has been needing to be said for a long time what really goes through the mind of your drive thru order taker...so here goes:

We don't care that it is raining, snowing, windy, or any other form of bad or possibly good weather for the reason you do not roll your window down to place your order...DO IT and speak clearly if you want your order to be correct, or simply get out of your car and come inside to place your order.

If I ask you to repeat your order, it does not mean that I need you to SCREAM so that I can hear you, it may be that I was also being engaged by the person at the window who couldn't remember to order everything at the speaker and wants to add something before they pay!

I don't really care how much fun you had at the bar or that you have 3 giggling girls in the back seat that you're taking home, I am simply here to supply the food that you will later throw up in the toilet...I have an idea...just go home and flush a $10 bill down your toilet and save me a headache!

Do me a favor...if you are all paying in cash...figure out your own math and don't insist on having 5 separate orders in the SAME CAR!

Honking your horn in line only slows me down...nuff said!

Just because the sauce is free to you...doesn't mean it is free to the company...be reasonable or one day it will no longer be free and you will get mad at me for something I have no control over.

I'm okay with the fact that you like your food made "special" but since you don't want someone who is handling dirty filthy cash making your food don't expect me to make sure that I make it right.

One last thing, if you think that my job is so easy a monkey can do it, I'll gladly hand you the headset and wait 15 minutes before you walk away stomping, screaming, or possibly whimpering with your tail between your legs.

Have a nice day/night and do come back now...ya hear?