Friday, July 22, 2011
You've been talking in your sleep
Why is it that I sacrifice myself for the acceptance of others when the one I most need acceptance from IS me? I am baffled by this often...too often in fact! It's funny that when searching for someone to say "well done" or "nice job" or "impressive" I forget to look to the person who should appreciate me most...me, again. When seeking love, pats on the back, forgiveness, compliments, praise...who knows best what to say? Me. So why is it so hard to say it to myself? Funny how after years and years of "looking for myself", I can't seem to look at myself in the mirror anymore without judgement, criticism, & even shame sometimes for not believing in myself and my own abilities as a person. I let people steal the best of me and replace it with a person I don't like being around. I have to learn to appreciate me, regardless of what I receive from anyone else. I have a lot to offer and a lot to say. I just need to start speaking the language to me!
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Time is on Our Side
Time is on Our Side! What a load of crap!
I feel like time slips away from me so fast that I hardly recognize where it all goes ... even in a single day!
From the minute I crawl out of my bed in the morning until I bury my head in the pillow at night (or usually the wee hours of the morning) my day seems to have been in light speed with me stuck in an alternate state of time going "now hold on a second"!
For crying out loud ... there are only 159 shopping days until Christmas! For those of you who calculated...I didn't count Thanksgiving because most stores are closed then.
My point is that it seems like I just popped the top on my sparkling cider bottle to the tune of Auld Lang Syne yesterday.
So what have I done in 200+ days since then? Well if I calculate the 50+ hours a week that I work + the 6 to 8 hours a day that I sleep + the 2.5 hours a day I probably spend preparing something to eat and then eating it + the 30 minutes a day X 5 days a week that I drive to and from work + the 6 hours a month I spend grocery shopping + the 4 hours a month at Walmart or some other discount store for toiletries + the 45 minutes a day that it takes me to get ready for work ....
I'm seeing it doesn't leave much time for my favorite 3 "F's" Family, Friends and FUN!
So what to do?
The craziness is that I spend so much of my time and energy on "work" that I damn sure better enjoy it...so from today on that is exactly what I'm going to do!
I take back my "FUN" side and I make my job fun! Because trust me when I say that I've stepped into the night of the living dead many times at work lately and it is difficult not to get stuck in the quicksand and smother right along with everyone else...but I know there is goodness in everyone and I will be determined to find and highlight it so that I will have grand days, every day!
A toast...to Time! May you always stop when there is laughter to share, praise in the air, gladness in the heart and when a party is about to start! Freeze the moments and graft them into the memory to always be shared again!
Cheers!
I feel like time slips away from me so fast that I hardly recognize where it all goes ... even in a single day!
From the minute I crawl out of my bed in the morning until I bury my head in the pillow at night (or usually the wee hours of the morning) my day seems to have been in light speed with me stuck in an alternate state of time going "now hold on a second"!
For crying out loud ... there are only 159 shopping days until Christmas! For those of you who calculated...I didn't count Thanksgiving because most stores are closed then.
My point is that it seems like I just popped the top on my sparkling cider bottle to the tune of Auld Lang Syne yesterday.
So what have I done in 200+ days since then? Well if I calculate the 50+ hours a week that I work + the 6 to 8 hours a day that I sleep + the 2.5 hours a day I probably spend preparing something to eat and then eating it + the 30 minutes a day X 5 days a week that I drive to and from work + the 6 hours a month I spend grocery shopping + the 4 hours a month at Walmart or some other discount store for toiletries + the 45 minutes a day that it takes me to get ready for work ....
I'm seeing it doesn't leave much time for my favorite 3 "F's" Family, Friends and FUN!
So what to do?
The craziness is that I spend so much of my time and energy on "work" that I damn sure better enjoy it...so from today on that is exactly what I'm going to do!
I take back my "FUN" side and I make my job fun! Because trust me when I say that I've stepped into the night of the living dead many times at work lately and it is difficult not to get stuck in the quicksand and smother right along with everyone else...but I know there is goodness in everyone and I will be determined to find and highlight it so that I will have grand days, every day!
A toast...to Time! May you always stop when there is laughter to share, praise in the air, gladness in the heart and when a party is about to start! Freeze the moments and graft them into the memory to always be shared again!
Cheers!
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